So Much For That

So yesterday morning sucked.

There’s something I’ve been wanting to do so, so bad for a very, very long time. And I got to a point where I was like, “I can do this! It’s finally going to happen!” Then, little by little, it kept slipping away. Yesterday it finally all just fell apart. I spent the morning hiding in my office crying my little heart out.

It sucks when you work so hard to make something happen, and then it doesn’t. I’ve just been feeling the universe laughing at me – yet again.

I’m trying to find a bright side. I’m trying so hard to convince myself, “This isn’t happening TO me. This is happening FOR me.” Hoping at some point the universe will reveal itself and let me know that letting this go was the right decision. But the truth is, all I can hear is the screams of, “You’re going to regret this so bad.”

I’m just here with my broken heart, looking for some kind of resolution.