Life Does Not Suck

It’s a busy time of year for us and we’ve been here before. School gets started, Aria’s schedule fills up, Vince starts a new bowling season, putting together Aria’s birthday party, all the Fall activities, and in between there I do my best to keep it all going with perfect pitch-black eyeliner.

Miss Aria is LOVING her new school! It brings me a huge sense of relief! As a mom, I have that constant fear of people not being nice to her, or that someone will ruin her educational dreams. So far she is doing great and looking forward to so many things!

Like a little over a week ago I was looking into a potential job opportunity. I didn’t set my little heart on it too much because I had a tiny feeling it was too good to be true. Sure enough, by the end of the process, things didn’t work out. I wasn’t too upset about it, honestly because I have my current job that I really do like. It’s not that I’m looking for a new job, it was just a potential opportunity. I think it was mostly my pride that took a hit. I mean, it’s nice to feel seen and feel like there’s some value to what I bring to the table. So many of us artists suffer from the worst Imposter Syndrome. But after a couple of hours, I accepted that perhaps God was actually just saving me from something else.

Anyways, afterwards I was left thinking, “What’s next?” I’m always looking for the next thing to do. A year ago I earned my Digital Marketing Certification which has come to be super handy. Now I’m itching for the next round of torture. The voices in my head keep telling me to go to grad school. I would also love to get my drone licensure. Both very useful options, but the time and money is what’s holding me back. I just need to weigh out my options and get going on something.

One thing that has been happening to me again, I’ve been running into 555. And I say again because I kept running into it after Aria was born, then again the whole time I was going to art school. Every time I see it, I try to take a pic of it. After Aria was born it freaked me out to see this number everywhere, so I researched it. Turns out it’s actually an “Angel Number” that Aria brought into our world with her. It seems 555 represents change, progression, and transformation. I’m not one of these people that believes in all sorts of supernaturals and religious stuff, but I do like to think someone keeps an eye on us and wants good things for us. So whoever that might be, I feel like they’re sending me little 555’s to let me know I’m going to be okay.

So through all my insecurities, cluelessness, and no sense of direction, right now I feel freakin’ good! I’m thankful for the things that are going right. I feel fortunate to have my chill job, my healthy family, and all the things that make my life. So I’m just rollin’ with it!