Old Mom

There’s these posts and memes going around talking about how women who are having babies in their teens and early twenties are judged for being young mothers. Then these young women justify their early-age pregnancies by saying they’ll still look young and hot when their children graduate high school. Meanwhile, people who had kids later in life will just be old and decrepit when their children reach adulthood. Damn. Would you like to just twist the dagger in my chest a little more?

I had Aria at 34 years old. When she graduates high school, I will be 53. That number sounds pretty ancient. But I have zero regrets about waiting so long. I got the mad partying out of my system. Vince and I have established our financial situation. We have a wonderful and safe home for our family. I would’ve loved to have traveled on my own a bit more, but at least I did have a few great adventures. I can honestly say, I’ve done enough that I don’t have to deal with much FOMO in my life.

I am aware I may not be around when Aria has life events like getting married or establishing her career. I may not be around to meet my grandchildren if she chooses to have any. I just know I’m here and now, so I’m enjoying my kiddo as much as possible while she’s all mine.

On the other hand, I’m giving my daughter a huge boost by not dragging her through my struggling years. I’m happy I’m at a point that whatever Aria needs or wants, I can provide for her. So many doors are available for her to open. Way more than I ever had. I didn’t bring a child into this world to suffer. I brought her here to make the world a better place.

Honestly, I look forward to when Aria goes off to college and we get to go visit for Parent’s Weekend. I totally want to be the parents that take their daughter and all her friends out to dinner. Then take them out for drinks at whatever college hangout, all on my tab of course because Mommy and Daddy’s credit card can totally take it. Vince and I will leave early because we’re old and can’t hang past midnight anymore. In the morning, we’ll take them all out for some yummy and fattening breakfast to help with the hangover. I think that might get me some “Cool Mom” points.

Anyways, we’re all at different levels of the game. Some people got into it right away. I waited for the cool Pikachu controller to come out because I knew that’s what I wanted to roll with. The point is, we’re all playing the same game.